Wednesday, November 23, 2011

I miss my Friends..

I miss my Friends,

When I see some other Gang sitting around, caring, slapping each other.

Their mischievous smiles switching to loud laughter’s,

Though stranger to me,

they represent a part of my life I lost somewhere,

I miss my friends.

I like you all, I love u all, Stay happy where ever you are..


#youknowwhoyouare *yes, i mean YOU..!

x0x0

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Friday, November 11, 2011

Kerja...! Kerja...! Kerja...!

pade siape2 yg dah kerje or dalam proses nk carik kerje or mmg malas nk kerje, you guys may came across these few sentences from your bosses or collegue..

tapi tau kh anda maksud tersirat mereka?????

nah...!


"We will do it" means " You will do it"

"You have done a great job" means "More work to be given to you"

"We are working on it" means "We have not yet started working on the same"

"Tomorrow first thing in the morning" means "Its not getting done...At least not tomorrow !".

"After discussion we will decide - I am very open to views" means "I have already decided, I will tell you what to do"

"There was a slight miscommunication" means "We had actually lied"

"Lets call a meeting and discuss" means "I have no time now, will talk later"

"We can always do it" means "We actually cannot do the same on time"

"We are on the right track but there needs to be a slight extension of the deadline" means "The project is screwed up, we cannot deliver on time."

"We had slight differences of opinion" means "We had actually fought"

"Make a list of the work that you do and let's see how I can help you" means "Anyway you have to find a way out no help from me"

"You should have told me earlier" means "Well even if you told me earlier that would have made hardly any difference!"

"We need to find out the real reason" means "Well I will tell you where your fault is"

"Well... family is important, your leave is always granted. Just ensure that the work is not affected" means "Well you know..."

"We are a team" means "I am not the only one to be blamed"

"That's actually a good question" means "I do not know anything about it"

"All the Best" means " You are in trouble"


xoxo

selamat bekerja!

I Am Sick of Being Me

God, sometimes I'm sick of being me. I can't keep a steady relationship over 3 years! i'm fat.... i'm fat....i'm fat....i'm broke....i'm single....bla...bla...bla...

I pretend that I'm happy to everyone, but deep inside I'm not, for instant whenever people around me asking about my relationship or love life, I end up having nightmares about it, I've been constantly sick for the last...as long as rememberand work has been hell for me!

I just can't seem to get my act together. I over think and over analyse everything to death, to the point where it takes me 2 hours to actually fall asleep or to put back myself in a happy mode. I just feel like I'm going nowhere in my life and it just really sucks. All I want is to be happy and every time I come a little close to being happy, I, they or everyone and everything around me seem to ruin it. I just need to get this out because it's so frustrating that everyone around me seems to be happy and have everything I want, and here I am, an emotional, twisted wreck...have nothing to parade too...

Why can't things just go right for me for a change?

then it come to my senses...

Sometimes having a relationship when you're having conflicts with yourself make them almost impossible to maintain. You shouldn't have to put up a facade to anyone. Work on some good ol' "Me" time. Focus on things you want to do and focus on putting your emotions aside once you get them sorted out.

if you had been dumped by your ex for another person after 2 years of being together or what ever the problem is.. you must and just spent a year of yourself and focused on changes for yourself (for yourself, and not for anybody else). focused on school or work and just spent quality time with yourself or family Of course hung out with friends and everything - dont just hide in your room. things will slowly became more meaningfull and without you notising it , your life will be fulled with colors!

Unfortunately just remember that other people can't fix your insecurities for you. It's a challenge everyone has to tackle and they have to overcome those insecurities. just say Alhamdulillah, everything is going to be okey and let GOD do HIS job and remember, our Qada and Qadar already been written for us.. just close your eyes, and say, our Al Mighty God Allah, knew better...



but stil, im sick of being me...

xoxo